The Last Thing That Had To Break Was Him

The Last Thing That Had To Break Was Him


– I was battling the end of a 10-year struggle with substance abuse, a lifelong struggle with self-hatred, and a… a disbelief that I would ever wake up and experience being alive again. I had avoided any
opportunity to let myself know the state of disconnection
that I was living in. At the time of my
diagnosis, my A1C was at 12. That’s a biomarker for diabetes, and anything above 6.4 is type 2 diabetic. My blood pressure was 210
over a hundred and something. My cholesterol was through the roof. Which is, if you think about it, completely reasonable given the way that I was living my life. I found myself alone, in the dark, on the floor, in a puddle of vomit with no one around me, not because they didn’t
wanna be there for me, but because I had pushed
everything that meant anything out of my life, and I ended up in addiction recovery
treatment where I was diagnosed with type 2 diabetes, high blood pressure, high cholesterol, erectile
dysfunction, bipolar disorder, suicidal depression, anxiety
disorder, sleep disorder, and attention deficit disorder. The last thing that had to break before I changed my
diet, was literally me. And my motivation had nothing
to do with my diabetes, or my heart disease, or my
obesity, or my substance abuse. Those things were real,
and they are motivation, but the motivation for me
was, all right, I was obese, and I didn’t wanna be. I had heart disease and diabetes, and I didn’t want those things. And I nearly died from substance
abuse, and to be honest, I didn’t wanna live,
but I surely discovered after attempting suicide
that I didn’t wanna die. Within three months of
adopting a plant-based diet, of adopting a mindfulness
meditation practice and moving my body with purpose, reconnecting with nature
on a regular basis. I completely reversed my
diabetes, my heart disease, and my erectile dysfunction. Within a year, I was off
of every single medication I was diagnosed with, I
was prescribed in rehab, including the antidepressants,
the mood stabilizers, the sleeping medications,
the anxiety medications, the ADHD medications, and I
lost over a hundred pounds in the first year. I’ve lost 200 pounds as of today. There’s a photo in my apartment. One is of my dad that’s taken by my mom, as my dad and my mom were walking me into the doors of rehab. Next to it is a photo taken
by my mom, with my dad and I running the race in
Austin three years later. We underestimate the power
of the most simple choices that we have in our lives,
and those simple choices are the ones that we have
control over, most of the time: what we put on our plate,
how we talk to ourselves, how we live with other people. Change doesn’t happen
five minutes from now. It certainly doesn’t
happen five minutes before. It doesn’t happen five weeks
or five years from now, and it doesn’t happen five
weeks or five years before. It’s right here right
now, because now is when I have a choice, and I know the choice that brings positive change for me, and for me is the diet that
creates the greatest health I’ve ever experienced in my life. It allows me to get up and
feel good about the impact that I have on the world around me. It allows me to get up and be the person that I wanna be for my family. It allows me to be the most
authentic version of myself I’ve ever been. And you know what? It’s the person that I’ve always been. I didn’t become somebody new. I became the person I’ve always been, just the most authentic version of it that I’ve ever experienced in my life.

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